The Moonlight Sonata
coaxes light through the window.
A warm glow is between us.
Then air turns to ash
and we close our eyes.
Once when we could still see
there were hands between us,
one a teacup, the kind saved
for the careful company,
the other a nesting bird
enveloping, gentle, weightless.
I could feel in your arms the
steel bands that hummed
with precision over a vast
network of machinery,
driving one day into the next.
The smell of heat hung on you,
white heat, blast furnace heat.
Skin seared to ochre, a badge,
a medallion, a sign of your time.
The heavy scent of oil, grease
and solvents hung around your
shoulders. The shoulders from
where I could see a world
shaped by the will of your vision,
the will of your back.
I could see your hair
black, curled, swept back
by the wind or tide as
you leaned in to stand your ground
or go under for the third time.
The leather chair smelled of
smoke and grass. I could
wait for you there while you
slept, slumped, heavy breath
moist, warm on the back of
my neck.
Then our eyes are open
you speak, finally, your voice
is soft and hollow the way
mourning doves purr as the
streetlights go out. All the
sadness and regret is in your eyes
so your voice can carry across
the room to meet the music halfway.
I hold your hand like a teacup,
the taste of ash on my tongue
the grit in my eyes.
I wish for wind,
any expansion of air
so I can see light through the window
and feel again
the warm glow between us.
rs